When I was 14, I forgot how to feel
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A BEGINNERS GUIDE TO PSYCHIATRIC MEDICINE
They say, Medication is amazing and worth it.
Say its worth the shakes, and the headaches, and the shit that surrounds you in your bed the next morning because your eyes clang shut like lead,
they will tell you sleep is just par for the course.
They will tell you you'll be awake to see a crisp blue sky, birds chirping good morning
they will tell you your thoughts that used to bind you, will become dislodged
they will tell you, be patient, it might take weeks to work they will tell you, how important is it to take your medicine
they will tell you, your penis might become flaccid and shriveled
they will tell you, this is the only way.
Don't ask them if they've used these things before, it will cause them to be vulnerable, they will ask you why are you asking
Don't ask them if you can do it without pills, they will tell you its impossible, tell you you're being defiant, they will insist on three more adjustments, they will tell you its necessary
They won't tell you your cured
they wont tell you, your thoughts that tied you in bondage, made you paralyze to think, they wont tell you they dont go away, they wont tell you, they just float, or that you have to put them somewhere, so you lodge them, in shoulder blades and in your mouth, between your enamel and the gumline,
they wont tell you you might be tempted to drink red wine
they wont tell you you might throw it up afterwards in the toliet by yourself
they wont tell you, you will probably feel worse before you feel better
they wont tell you, you might see spiders on the wall
they wont tell you, you might feel like the sky is caving in
they wont tell you, insurance might not cover this
they wont tell you, you might have to quit your job
they wont tell you, you might stay in bed for days
they wont tell you, its ok to throw in the towel
they wont tell you, its possible to make it on your own
they wont tell you, get a second opinion.
they wont tell you, your cured.